Ranting and Raging- what else is new?

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I know that the majority of my posts are angry rants about what’s wrong with people, society, my life, etc.  BUT the reason I do this here on WordPress is so I don’t drive my friends and family crazy.  I have to rant and rage here because I have no other outlets.  Normally, up close and in person, I am a fairly happy person.  I have my sore spots but for the most part I try and stay positive.  Blowing up here helps me keep my cool in my personal life.

On that note, let me just say that I am so sick and tired of the United States as a whole.  I am sure there are other countries that would piss me off too, but I have only ever lived here (and Canada- but that’s a separate post !) 

I have been home in the States since the beginning of December, and I am getting sickened more and more by what I see.  Since I’ve been home, I have realized that the area where I was raised is now nothing more than a consumeristic cess pool, and is sadly a fair representation of most of the country.  There is nothing to do here other than shopping.  Where there used to be cornfields and forests are now mini-malls and ticky-tac subdivisions.  Where are all these people coming from?  Why do we need 4 Menards, 3 Home Depots, and a Lowes within a 10 mile radius?  There is one of the countries largest shopping malls here yet you cannot drive one mile without passing by a strip mall filled with fast food restaurants and shops selling wares that no one really needs- just like at the fucking mall you passed 2 miles back! 

Our government has turned its back on the Constitution, our media is completely corrupt and inaccurate, and “What kind of gun do you own” is a question picked from millions to be asked at the Republican debates.  Religion is becoming law in a country that was born from the desire to believe what you want and live how you want, I am afraid to say “terrorist” on the telephone, and have to think twice before I bring Christmas cookies into an airport!  Christmas cookies!?!

Our news covers Britney Spears more than the war in Iraq, and when it does cover  the war the information is one-sided, biased, and at times completely false.   And in between the news every commercial I see is for a prescription drug.  I was fine before but now, according to these commercials, I have Restless leg syndrome, bi-polar disorder, and erectile dysfunction!!  Report on Drug Advertisements

 MMMM… Pills!

I wont even get into our diets and how we eat, and then what we spend on weight loss plans… and how we tear down any kind of outside facility that could be used for exercise and then build a gym there!

I’m sorry but I am absolutely terrified.  What have we all turned into?  What have we let our world become?  All we do is shop and eat, and meanwhile our environment is crumbling at an alarming rate, the WORLD is at war, there is no trust, we are all in debt due to our greed, and people are actually convicing themselves that everything is fine.  I’m disgusted with all of us.  It really is that bad too… it really has gotten to the point where it’s not the same old doom and gloom rag that has been going on forever, it’s actually here now!

I try and look for the good in people, and a lot of times it’s not hard to find, but that’s not good enough anymore.  Things are snowballing downhill fast and someday soon something really really really big is going to happen that is going to force us to change our ways.  I just hope me and my family survive whatever happens!

I’m not a religious person, but my dad (refusing to believe that I am not a religious person) showed me a verse in his Bible the other day.  It was from Jacob I think, something about warfare and when it’s okay to start that shit.  He has the kind of Bible that, at the end of each book, explains things for you in Layman’s terms, and it explained that God says it’s okay to go to war when the people you are fighting have claimed the land for themselves and have forgotten or ignored the fact that the land belongs to the Lord.  Whether there is a god or not- what we have here on planet Earth is a gift and we have completely abused it.  I’m not saying start a war, but doesn’t it seem like we are the people who have claimed the land for ourselves and not respected it as something that transcends ownership?  What the hell is this “all for us and none for all” attitude that the majority of the country (and the rest of the First World for that matter) has taken.  Are we REALLY that stupid?

Yes.

Reality Television is Dead. Face it.

What a glorious thing we thought reality tv was.  The early Real World and Survivor blew us away.  They were great!  Look at these real people making fools of themselves!  What voyeurs we are.  It was awesome.

Now, however, there isn’t much to choose from BESIDES reality tv show.  Survivor, The Real World, The Hills (barely), Trading Spouses, Big Brother, L.A. Ink, Miami Ink, The Bachelor, Joe Millionaire, America/ Austrailia/ Canada /Britain’s Next Top Models, Biggest Loser, etc. etc.  These are supposed to be ‘real’ people given opportunities to win money, fame, a title, weight, etc.  But the more reality show dribble that is being produced, the less real it is!  And even if it was real, we don’t care anymore!

Instead of real people being on tv, it’s now aspiring actors and celebrity-esque competitors.  Everyone is on to how ‘alliances’ work, and there is always some kind of shocking scandal- what a surprise that a girl on Top Model has an eating disorder, or that some asshole on Biggest Loser drank 40 gallons of water to throw the vote, or someone passes out or gets slapped, whatever.  How many times can we watch the same thing happen? 

It was cool the first time a Survivor contestant got naked, it was shocking when the guy on the Real World slapped the girl with Lupus back in ‘98, and we all loved the religious rant of that creepy lady on wife swap, but attention television networks:  Just because we liked it the first time doesn’t mean you have to do it for every fucking show. 

And as far as this Hollywood writer’s strike- GOOD!  You guys suck too!  Maybe if you wrote something good we wouldn’t be forced to turn to the “unpredictable” antics of reality television.  I’m sorry but everyone needs to get their own personal reality check and stop encouraging this crap.  I say spread the fires towards Hollywood and lets rebuild from scratch.  I demand some quality programming.  I want to see a sitcom that strays from the same 5 plots writers have been using since TGIF fifteen years ago.  And I don’t want to hear about fat people losing weight, slutty people being slutty, fanatical people being psycho, and models passing out from eating nothing but apple seeds for two weeks. 

Heroes sucks, 24 sucks, Grey’s Anatomy SUCKS, every thing on television sucks.  Everything.  I don’t even want cable because that sucks too.  And maybe you’re saying “well why don’t you write a show if you don’t like the selection?”  Because I am not a television writer, and if I wrote television shows they would all be about smoking weed and complaining about television- and I have to common sense to know that people don’t want to watch that. 

Back to my original topic- I didn’t intend to touch on regular television shows- but back to Reality Television.  Stop it.  Just stop.  How many more $100,000 prizes can we give out?  How long until we run out of fat people to go on Biggest Loser or people who want a phoenix tattooed on their arm by Kat Von Slut?  How many more islands are left to film Survivor on and how long until the people on Trading Spouses realize that the person who comes into their home is going to make them live differently than they’re used to- that is the point.  And how many more seasons of the Real World can we stomach?  I went to college, and it was the same fucking thing, alcoholic sluts throwing things at each other. 

Doing yoga and still a bitch

So I’ve been interested in yoga for a very long time, but only really got into it about a year ago, and lately have been doing it every day.  I am planning on taking a studio class but for now have been taking “lessons” online from: www.yogatoday.com which is a really good site- but don’t be an idiot and try and do hard poses when you probably aren’t ready.  I did “headstand” today and practically decapitated myself- so I was being an idiot. 

But- I’ve been reading more and more about how yoga is so good for you: http://yoga.about.com/od/beginningyoga/a/benefits.htm

Yoga helps your body, mind, and spirit- and since I feel especially connected to all three of these (as I would think everyone does) I decided to really stick with it- even on days when I suck at it. 

So I’ve been doing it and it makes me feel pretty good- but I can’t seem to attain the wholesome calmness that people claim yoga brings.  I still get totally pissed off about stuff, I still rant and get sad sometimes, and I’m still really lazy.  The only thing I’ve really noticed is that I have toned shoulders and can now touch my toes

Don’t get me wrong, I feel great after doing yoga, and I feel good about myself for actually having something I “do” (I never played sports or anything so it’s a new feeling).  But why am I still a bitch?  Shouldn’t meditation and yoga at least give me the ability to hide my nastiness?  And I’m not thinking that yoga actually makes you a different human being- I will always hate Kelly Ripa and I will always get mad when my husband folds his socks before throwing them in the hamper, no matter how much yoga I do or how times I count to 10 - but could I please not get SO mad/practically violent about it?  I thought yoga would at least allow me to retire the soap box and be “okay” with being upset about something- accepting those feelings instead of pounding their unjust-ness into the offenders head until the beg for me to calm down.  That’s why I’m doing yoga you asshole!  To calm down!!

I don’t know if it takes a while or what, but for now I’m not as concerned about being one with my 3rd eye, I guess I’ll focus more on touching my forehead to my heels and doing that damn headstand without completely separating anything.